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Missed one day. Had some problems with health. My nose was bleeding for a couple of days. It started small, but then, every time I blew it, there was more and more blood. I felt quite weak these days, but now it’s getting better.
Today, I have to conduct a speaking club. There was a pause for four months, so my skills of making a good conversation have not been exercised. Hence I must invest more time in preparation. I’ve decided to use an informal style for the “first” meeting. I wanna talk about current events instead of focusing on one particular topic. However, if it’s not gonna work, I must have a plan B. After games and the introduction, if the discussion doesn’t go anywhere, I’ll suggest talking about one of these topics: authenticity, authority, beliefs, bravery, censorship, cyborgs, demons, drugs, empathy, entropy, friends, food, games, glory, hypocrisy, hostility, jobs, jokes, internet, irrationalism, kindness, kings, love, loneliness, miracles, monogamy, nature, needs, optimism, openness, quality, questions, rights, religion, society, secrets, trolls, triumphs, universities, uniqueness, violence, vehicles, weather, witches, yoga, youth, zen.
A went for a hike and is gonna be back in the evening. I slept along, having a couple of lucid dreams. I also had this damn tinnitus in the middle of the night. It wasn’t strong though. I had been turning from one side to another for half an hour and it disappeared. Maybe, it’s somehow connected with my physical condition and has very little to do with cognitive overdoses.
Here is what I wrote after conducting the club.
There were nine people including myself: eight men and one woman. We started by a game where everyone had to recall five words beginning with a certain letter. Then we made up names for movies, also having only two initial letters. For example, one person offered the letters “a” and “b” and the other had to make up something like “Adventures Begin.” The introduction was centered on coronavirus, so almost everyone shared their experience of getting through the pandemic, lockout, etc. We briefly talked about what was going on in the world, complained about the lack of speaking practice, noticed the change in our communication skills, touched on several topics out of those I’ve prepared, read some quotes and interpreted them, and finally, after the pair work, watched a short video about “inner peace”.
I was thinking a lot about building a connection instead of focusing on any special topic, but haven’t achieved anything. Although there was some kind of connection between certain members of the discussion, fundamentally, the whole thing was quite embarrassing. However, maybe it’s just the way I see it. I haven’t said anything inappropriate, and the atmosphere was very friendly. Why do I pay attention only to negative things? Well, I guess, it’s because now I have certain feelings after the conflict with A.
Anyway, there were many cases like this one, and it’s probably gonna be resolved tomorrow. I’ll think about it later.
I must constantly think about little improvements to make the club grow. Working on my communication skills is what’s needed right now.
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